Bucket Lists & Mid-life Crisis

I remember turning 30 and having a mid-mid-life crisis. I hadn’t done any of the things I had planned in life. (Other than populating the world, which I did quite well).

And now, Here I sit , crossing that divide, where I start to tumble rather precociously towards my 40’s; still unsure of what I want to be as a grown up, and so many bucket list items not nearly crossed off.

Maybe the forties are still youthful to so many, but I buried my father, my cousin(s), my uncle(s), my friends and my grandparent(s) in my 20’s… some of them were in their 20’s & 30’s. My father had barely seen his 50’s. That changes your view. It makes you appreciate every day a little more, and fear for the future twice as much.

It brings on feelings of failure, looking at what accomplishments their short lives had laid out and seeing where I am still teetering on the edge of half filled dreams and uncertain sanguineness.

I hope to live a long life, overflowing with dozens of grandkids. But tonight I dream to start checking off that list. To leave a legacy, just as my father and his father before him. One step at a time, one foot in front of the other, my first goal is to finish those college classes I started 19 years ago. Which may in fact make me some sort of record for most years to accomplish an Associate’s Degree!!

So here is a toast (of chocolate milk of course) to all of those late life bloomers, like myself, who have finally decided to finish at least one of our nearly 2 decade old projects! And to the dream that passing that last math class (why do you think it has taken so long) can be a reality!!!

And a congratulations to all of the 2018 Graduates who filled their first step towards a dream!

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